I almost forgot to do my weekly scale hop this morning, but was pleasantly surprised with a 1.6lb loss. :)
I only hit the gym once this week, due to a crazy schedule and an illness. I've had a sore throat, chest congestion with cough, ear pain, and sinus pressure since Monday. I went to my regular endocrinologist on Wednesday for my quarterly check-up and he listened to my lung sounds and immediately prescribed me a Z-pack. I've felt absolutely awful since then - my daily breakfast is my Z-pack, Delsym, DayQuil, tea with lemon and honey, and a large Wawa Chicken Noodle soup. Yesterday, DH brought me home lidocaine throat stuff, so I've been using that as well.
DH thinks I have the flu. I got a flu shot this year (like every year) but he thinks that the extra progesterone suppressed my immune system and that's why I'm so bad right now. I had a much less intense illness similar to this about 3 weeks ago, so he thinks I never fully got over that and now, here I am. I also have an itchy rash on my hip/butt cheek where he was doing the progesterone injections, so I am probably dying and falling apart, lol. He says if I'm not better by Sunday, I'm paying his urgent care a visit. LOL.
Tomorrow I go for my ultrasound and bloodwork and should know my injectible protocol by tomorrow night. :)
Showing posts with label WLJ. Show all posts
Showing posts with label WLJ. Show all posts
Friday, December 21, 2012
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
On Cycle #11: BFN
With no surprise to me whatsoever, the RE's office called late yesterday afternoon and left a message that my beta was negative. I'm glad I didn't interrupt my afternoon nap by answering the phone and instead just listened to the voicemail my favorite nurse left me.
I saw her when I went in for my bloodwork, and she said she had her fingers crossed. I told her I was sure it was going to be negative, since I had tested, and she said "you know you aren't supposed to do that!" Do they really think we aren't going to test on our own? LOL.
I tested on 11DPIUI and 14DPIUI and both were stark white. The stark whiteness doesn't even shock me anymore. I wait a minute or two and then toss the damn things in the trash. What's the point?
This is the first cycle EVER where I haven't cried about the BFN. I think I just had so little hope going into it, thanks to my shitty lining, that I didn't even think it was possible. Of course, typing this out, I feel a little sad and like I could cry, but it's not even worth the tears. The tears don't change anything, me doing everything the doctor says doesn't change anything, nothing is in our control, obviously. I feel like I'm slowly resigning myself to the fact this may not happen for us. I know I'm not at the end of the line with treatments and options, but if it hasn't happened with all these other things, why would it suddenly happen? At this point, I'd welcome a chemical pregnancy, just for the knowledge that it IS possible. At this point, I'm being lead, almost blindly, into things that may never prove fruitful.
Anyways, I had written on my callback form that I wanted to start injectibles this next cycle, and she said for me to come in for my CD2 or CD3 ultrasound and bloodwork and then they'd figure out what medication I would use. She said since I already have the Menopur, maybe I'll use that.
I haven't tracked a single thing in weeks, mostly due to laziness and having been on vacation the past few days (which was fabulous, by the way)... so I'm making myself start up again. If I'm not going to dedicate to Weight Watchers and the gym, I need to stop paying for them because it's just such a waste.
I saw her when I went in for my bloodwork, and she said she had her fingers crossed. I told her I was sure it was going to be negative, since I had tested, and she said "you know you aren't supposed to do that!" Do they really think we aren't going to test on our own? LOL.
I tested on 11DPIUI and 14DPIUI and both were stark white. The stark whiteness doesn't even shock me anymore. I wait a minute or two and then toss the damn things in the trash. What's the point?
This is the first cycle EVER where I haven't cried about the BFN. I think I just had so little hope going into it, thanks to my shitty lining, that I didn't even think it was possible. Of course, typing this out, I feel a little sad and like I could cry, but it's not even worth the tears. The tears don't change anything, me doing everything the doctor says doesn't change anything, nothing is in our control, obviously. I feel like I'm slowly resigning myself to the fact this may not happen for us. I know I'm not at the end of the line with treatments and options, but if it hasn't happened with all these other things, why would it suddenly happen? At this point, I'd welcome a chemical pregnancy, just for the knowledge that it IS possible. At this point, I'm being lead, almost blindly, into things that may never prove fruitful.
Anyways, I had written on my callback form that I wanted to start injectibles this next cycle, and she said for me to come in for my CD2 or CD3 ultrasound and bloodwork and then they'd figure out what medication I would use. She said since I already have the Menopur, maybe I'll use that.
I haven't tracked a single thing in weeks, mostly due to laziness and having been on vacation the past few days (which was fabulous, by the way)... so I'm making myself start up again. If I'm not going to dedicate to Weight Watchers and the gym, I need to stop paying for them because it's just such a waste.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
On Getting Back on my WLJ Grind - Wednesday Check-In
I've done Weight Watchers 3 times.
The first time was after a break-up with an ex after a 3 year relationship when I was about 24 years old and weighed about 154 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 16 lbs then, getting down to 138lbs. I was working out 5 times a week, doing weight training and cardio, and had a personal trainer.
The second time was after another break-up with an ex after a 1.5 year relationship when I was about 27 years old and weighed about 160 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 10 lbs then, getting down to 150lbs. I wasn't working out at all.
The third time was after I got engaged to DH and wanted to lose weight for my wedding when I was about 29 years old and weighed about 174 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 20 lbs then, getting down to 154lbs. I was working out 3 or so times a week, doing weight training and cardio, and had 2 personal trainers during that time.
It blows my mind that in my latest try at WW, I got down to the weight I was when I started the first time about 6 years earlier. Cra-zy.
Right now, I'm about 10lbs over what I weighed at my wedding. I had gained weight from our 2 week wedding and honeymoon, and frankly, just never got back on the WW or working out grind since then. I've "re-dedicated" quite a number of times, but just never got off the ground with it. Plus, let's add in another vacation, and the awesome side effects of weight gain and water retention from the fertility drugs/Endometrin, and the stress of this whole thing - and we have an overweight, un-toned, bloated Denielle.
I'm so over it.
So, this time, for real, I'm getting back on my weight loss and working out grind.
I started tracking my food again today, and I have a 'date' with a friend to workout at the gym this afternoon. Yes, I've been paying my gym membership and WW membership fees this whole time... ugh. And I hate to waste money.
My goal is to hit the gym today, Saturday, and Sunday and track my food - all the gory details - all week. I'll be back here next Wednesday to post how I've done. My weigh-in day for WW is on Fridays, and I don't want to change that, so I'll post my progress with my goals on Wednesdays and starting next week, my weigh-ins on Fridays. Accountability is key here, and even if no one is reading this, post it for all the internet to see should be good motivation. ;)
The first time was after a break-up with an ex after a 3 year relationship when I was about 24 years old and weighed about 154 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 16 lbs then, getting down to 138lbs. I was working out 5 times a week, doing weight training and cardio, and had a personal trainer.
The second time was after another break-up with an ex after a 1.5 year relationship when I was about 27 years old and weighed about 160 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 10 lbs then, getting down to 150lbs. I wasn't working out at all.
The third time was after I got engaged to DH and wanted to lose weight for my wedding when I was about 29 years old and weighed about 174 - which was the most I'd ever weighed. I ended up losing about 20 lbs then, getting down to 154lbs. I was working out 3 or so times a week, doing weight training and cardio, and had 2 personal trainers during that time.
It blows my mind that in my latest try at WW, I got down to the weight I was when I started the first time about 6 years earlier. Cra-zy.
Right now, I'm about 10lbs over what I weighed at my wedding. I had gained weight from our 2 week wedding and honeymoon, and frankly, just never got back on the WW or working out grind since then. I've "re-dedicated" quite a number of times, but just never got off the ground with it. Plus, let's add in another vacation, and the awesome side effects of weight gain and water retention from the fertility drugs/Endometrin, and the stress of this whole thing - and we have an overweight, un-toned, bloated Denielle.
I'm so over it.
So, this time, for real, I'm getting back on my weight loss and working out grind.
I started tracking my food again today, and I have a 'date' with a friend to workout at the gym this afternoon. Yes, I've been paying my gym membership and WW membership fees this whole time... ugh. And I hate to waste money.
My goal is to hit the gym today, Saturday, and Sunday and track my food - all the gory details - all week. I'll be back here next Wednesday to post how I've done. My weigh-in day for WW is on Fridays, and I don't want to change that, so I'll post my progress with my goals on Wednesdays and starting next week, my weigh-ins on Fridays. Accountability is key here, and even if no one is reading this, post it for all the internet to see should be good motivation. ;)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)